I carried you in my heart
before you were even born
And dared to dream
that you were real.
I carried your picture with me
since the day I received it,
And dared to love
a child I was yet to meet.
I carried you in my arms at last,
and gazed in helpless wonder
at your face,
And dared to lose
my heart to you.
And now, my child,
a dream fulfilled,
a prayer answered,
a family created,
I have dared to become
And so now,
my precious child,
I shall carry you
Christmas was amazing! I don’t think I have ever felt so blessed in all my years. This year there wasn’t a present under our tree for Justin and I from each other but we didn’t need actual presents. As we sat by the amazing Christmas tree holding our Christmas presents in our hands… OUR KIDS. That is all we wanted for Christmas. We have prayed and prayed so much for these little blessings and God has answered our prayers. Over this holiday season I have sat by the tree holding my babies and just cried. Thanking God for loving us and blessing us. Last year we didn’t even put up a Christmas tree. No lights, no presents, no holiday spirit. We had just went through a failed adoption and it just didn’t feel like Christmas. This year I felt that Christmas was just extra special. It was meant to be. I love to look back and see how God works in our lives. The things that we went through and the events that lead up to us getting our babies. It is just so amazing.
Every night we thank God for our family and friends. We thank him for loving us so much and blessing us with 2 amazing children. We are serving an amazing God.
I JUT HAVE TO SAY GOD IS AMAZING!!! AMAZING AMAZING AMAZING. OUR GOD HAS OPENED SO MANY DOORS FOR US THESE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS. HE HAS GIVEN US TWO BEAUTIFUL BABIES TO LOVE AND RAISE. MEET KYLER AND KAYLEEN! KYLER WAS BORN 09-04-10 AND KAYLEEN ON 10-04-10. WE ARE SO THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING THAT GOD HAS GIVEN TO US. THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS AND SUPPORT.
SUN IS SHINNING AND ITS NOT TO HOT. I LOVE IT OUTSIDE RIGHT NOW! WISH I WASN’T WORKING RIGHT NOW. I WOULD LOVE TO BE DOING SOMETHING FUN OUTSIDE. IS IT REALLY ONLY TUESDAY?!! SO MY NEPHEW JUST TURNED 2 ON THE 19TH OF AUGUST I AM SO AMAZED WITH HOW FAST HE IS GROWING AND LEARNING.
MY NIECE AND NEPHEW WERE HERE FROM ARIZONA FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS. IT WAS GREAT TO SEE THEM. IT WAS THE FIRST TIME MEETING MY NIECE. SHE IS 3 YEARS OLD. IT IS SO HARD LIVING SO FAR AWAY FROM THEM. HOPEFULLY THEY WILL BE MOVING HERE SOON. WE REALLY MISS OUR FAMILY.
HERE IS A PICTURE OF JALEE AND I.
HERE IS JEREMY ALL GROWN UP. I CAN’T BELIEVE HE IS AS ALMOST AS TALL AS I AM AND HE IS ONLY 10.
THANK YOU LORD FOR BLESSING US WITH WONDERFUL FRIENDS AND FAMILY. I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SUCH AN AMAZING LIFE. GOD HAS RECENTLY BLESSED JUSTIN AND I WITH WONDERFUL PEOPLE. HE HAS BROUGHT SO MANY AMAZING PEOPLE INTO OUR LIVES.
LOOK ALL AROUND YOU. SEE ALL THE BEAUTY THAT IS SURROUNDING US AT ALL TIMES. IF WE JUST SLOW DOWN AND LOOK FOR EVEN THE SMALLEST THINGS YOU WILL REALIZE THAT GOD HAS GIVEN US SO MUCH. HOW COULD ANYONE DENY THERE IS A GOD?
IT HAS BEEN A GREAT PAST COUPLE OF DAYS AND I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT GOD BRINGS INTO YOUR LIFE FOR A REASON. HE IS IN CONTROL AND KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING. I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THAT.
SO I KNOW AGAIN IT HAS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I HAVE POSTED ON HERE. A LOT HAS GONE ON. I CHANGED JOBS THEN I COULDN’T STAND IT SO THEN I WENT BACK TO STATE FARM AGAIN! LOVE WORKING WITH THEM AGAIN. JUSTIN AND I ARE DOING GREAT! WE ARE HAVING A LOT GO ON IN OUR LIVES RIGHT NOW AND WITHOUT GIVING TOO MUCH INFORMATION WE ARE ASKING FOR PRAYER. GOD IS WORKING IN OUR LIVES. IT IS AMAZING TO SEE THE UPS AND DOWNS THAT WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH IN THE LAST 5 YEARS OR SO BUT TO BE ABLE TO LOOK BACK AND SAY THAT GOD HAS CARRIED US THE WHOLE WAY IS AN AMAZING THING. IT TAKES A LOT OF FAITH AND TRUST TO GO THROUGH SOME OF OUR TRIALS THAT WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY I KNOW GOD IS THERE AND ON OUR SIDE. I NEED TO ASK ALL MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS FOR PRAYER FOR OUR BIRTHMOTHER. PRAY FOR PEACE AND COMFORT WITH THE DECISION THAT THEY HAVE TO MAKE. GIVE US ALL PEACE. I WILL KEEP ALL OF YOU UPDATED ON WHAT IS GOING ON WHEN I AM ABLE TO. JUST KNOW THAT GOD IS WORKING MIRACLES IN OUR LIVES.
Sorry for the delay in postings! With this new job I have been pouring myself into my posisiton! It has been nice to be able to some what get my mind off of adoption. Adoption is a beautiful thing but can be a crazy emotional roller coaster that is for sure.
We have been spending lots of time with family. Maddox my nephew is growing so fast. He is such a smart child it scares me. His vocabulary is amazing and he has a huge heart. Justin is still enjoying the smoker that he bought. He loves to smoke any kind of meat. Heck he wants to smoke all food!
Just a quick update, our adoption agency has combined with our former agency which was a really hard thing for Justin and I. We have prayed very hard and decided to go elsewhere. Idaho Youth Ranch is no longer in Boise Idaho but they did keep an office in Moscow Idaho. We are staying with this office. I really feel that God has pulled us to stay with them and to not go back to A New Begining. We continue to ask for prayer in our adoption journey. We need all the support that we can get from family and friends. I do not have any updated pictures and for that I am sorry. I will try and get them uploaded as soon as I am able. Here is the updated information for our adoption agency http://idahoyouthranchadoptions.org/ or you can reach our case worker at email@example.com !
I also am needing prayer for my aunt. She is still going through her chemo and it has been extremley hard for her. Please pray for strength and recovery. We are hopefully on an upward in this battle. I will keep you all posted.
Any comments are really appreciated! I love to read them and it makes me feel good to know that people are following along and supporting our journey. I hope everyone is well.