I LOVE YOU MY BLESSINGS

My child,
I carried you in my heart
before you were even born
And dared to dream
that you were real.

My child,
I carried your picture with me
since the day I received it,
And dared to love
a child I was yet to meet.

My child,
I carried you in my arms at last,
and gazed in helpless wonder
at your face,
And dared to lose
my heart to you.

And now, my child,
a dream fulfilled,
a prayer answered,
a family created,
I have dared to become
a mom.

And so now,
my precious child,
I shall carry you
home.

CHRISTMAS!

Christmas was amazing! I don’t think I have ever felt so blessed in all my years. This year there wasn’t a present under our tree for Justin and I from each other but we didn’t need actual presents. As we sat by the amazing Christmas tree holding our Christmas presents in our hands… OUR KIDS. That is all we wanted for Christmas. We have prayed and prayed so much for these little blessings and God has answered our prayers. Over this holiday season I have sat by the tree holding my babies and just cried. Thanking God for loving us and blessing us. Last year we didn’t even put up a Christmas tree. No lights, no presents, no holiday spirit. We had just went through a failed adoption and it just didn’t feel like Christmas. This year I felt that Christmas was just extra special. It was meant to be. I love to look back and see how God works in our lives. The things that we went through and the events that lead up to us getting our babies. It is just so amazing.

Every night we thank God for our family and friends. We thank him for loving us so much and blessing us with 2 amazing children. We are serving an amazing God.

VERY BLESSED!

I JUT HAVE TO SAY GOD IS AMAZING!!! AMAZING AMAZING AMAZING. OUR GOD HAS OPENED SO MANY DOORS FOR US THESE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS. HE HAS GIVEN US TWO BEAUTIFUL BABIES TO LOVE AND RAISE. MEET KYLER AND KAYLEEN! KYLER WAS BORN 09-04-10 AND KAYLEEN ON 10-04-10. WE ARE SO THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING THAT GOD HAS GIVEN TO US. THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS AND SUPPORT.

BEAUTIFUL DAY

SUN IS SHINNING AND ITS NOT TO HOT. I LOVE IT OUTSIDE RIGHT NOW! WISH I WASN’T WORKING RIGHT NOW. I WOULD LOVE TO BE DOING SOMETHING FUN OUTSIDE. IS IT REALLY ONLY TUESDAY?!! SO MY NEPHEW JUST TURNED 2 ON THE 19TH OF AUGUST I AM SO AMAZED WITH HOW FAST HE IS GROWING AND LEARNING.

MY NIECE AND NEPHEW WERE HERE FROM ARIZONA FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS. IT WAS GREAT TO SEE THEM. IT WAS THE FIRST TIME MEETING MY NIECE. SHE IS 3 YEARS OLD. IT IS SO HARD LIVING SO FAR AWAY FROM THEM. HOPEFULLY THEY WILL BE MOVING HERE SOON. WE REALLY MISS OUR FAMILY.

HERE IS A PICTURE OF JALEE AND I.

HERE IS JEREMY ALL GROWN UP. I CAN’T BELIEVE HE IS AS ALMOST AS TALL AS I AM AND HE IS ONLY 10.

WE ARE BLESSED

THANK YOU LORD FOR BLESSING US WITH WONDERFUL FRIENDS AND FAMILY. I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SUCH AN AMAZING LIFE. GOD HAS RECENTLY BLESSED JUSTIN AND I WITH WONDERFUL PEOPLE. HE HAS BROUGHT SO MANY AMAZING PEOPLE INTO OUR LIVES.

LOOK ALL AROUND YOU. SEE ALL THE BEAUTY THAT IS SURROUNDING US AT ALL TIMES. IF WE JUST SLOW DOWN AND LOOK FOR EVEN THE SMALLEST THINGS YOU WILL REALIZE THAT GOD HAS GIVEN US SO MUCH. HOW COULD ANYONE DENY THERE IS A GOD?

IT HAS BEEN A GREAT PAST COUPLE OF DAYS AND I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT GOD BRINGS INTO YOUR LIFE FOR A REASON. HE IS IN CONTROL AND KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING. I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THAT.

FAITH… HOPE… TRUST

SO I KNOW AGAIN IT HAS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I HAVE POSTED ON HERE. A LOT HAS GONE ON. I CHANGED JOBS THEN I COULDN’T STAND IT SO THEN I WENT BACK TO STATE FARM AGAIN! LOVE WORKING WITH THEM AGAIN. JUSTIN AND I ARE DOING GREAT! WE ARE HAVING A LOT GO ON IN OUR LIVES RIGHT NOW AND WITHOUT GIVING TOO MUCH INFORMATION WE ARE ASKING FOR PRAYER. GOD IS WORKING IN OUR LIVES. IT IS AMAZING TO SEE THE UPS AND DOWNS THAT WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH IN THE LAST 5 YEARS OR SO BUT TO BE ABLE TO LOOK BACK AND SAY THAT GOD HAS CARRIED US THE WHOLE WAY IS AN AMAZING THING. IT TAKES A LOT OF FAITH AND TRUST TO GO THROUGH SOME OF OUR TRIALS THAT WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY I KNOW GOD IS THERE AND ON OUR SIDE. I NEED TO ASK ALL MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS FOR PRAYER FOR OUR BIRTHMOTHER. PRAY FOR PEACE AND COMFORT WITH THE DECISION THAT THEY HAVE TO MAKE. GIVE US ALL PEACE. I WILL KEEP ALL OF YOU UPDATED ON WHAT IS GOING ON WHEN I AM ABLE TO. JUST KNOW THAT GOD IS WORKING MIRACLES IN OUR LIVES.

ITS BEEN A LONG TIME!

Sorry for the delay in postings! With this new job I have been pouring myself into my posisiton! It has been nice to be able to some what get my mind off of adoption. Adoption is a beautiful thing but can be a crazy emotional roller coaster that is for sure.

We have been spending lots of time with family. Maddox my nephew is growing so fast. He is such a smart child it scares me. His vocabulary is amazing and he has a huge heart. Justin is still enjoying the smoker that he bought. He loves to smoke any kind of meat. Heck he wants to smoke all food!

Just a quick update, our adoption agency has combined with our former agency which was a really hard thing for Justin and I. We have prayed very hard and decided to go elsewhere. Idaho Youth Ranch is no longer in Boise Idaho but they did keep an office in Moscow Idaho. We are staying with this office. I really feel that God has pulled us to stay with them and to not go back to A New Begining. We continue to ask for prayer in our adoption journey. We need all the support that we can get from family and friends. I do not have any updated pictures and for that I am sorry. I will try and get them uploaded as soon as I am able. Here is the updated information for our adoption agency http://idahoyouthranchadoptions.org/ or you can reach our case worker at deuler@youthranch.org !

I also am needing prayer for my aunt. She is still going through her chemo and it has been extremley hard for her. Please pray for strength and recovery. We are hopefully on an upward in this battle. I will keep you all posted.

Any comments are really appreciated! I love to read them and it makes me feel good to know that people are following along and supporting our journey. I hope everyone is well.

TO OUR BIRTH PARENTS:

Justin and I have started this blog in hopes to find our miracle. We will continue our blog for everyone to get an insight of who we are and how we live our lives. We want everyone to follow us on our adoption journey. Through the ups and downs of adoption. I want everyone to see the true beauty of adoption and how amazing it can be. Please follow our blog below to learn more about us!

To our birth parents:

We can only imagine that at this time you are facing one of the most difficult decisions you may ever make. We want you to know that we admire your faith and courage to consider the alternatives for your child. We cannot even begin to understand what you are going through but we know that God does know and he will comfort and guide you at this time. We believe that he has his hands in this and that he will take care of you. Our hearts are filled with love, respect and admiration for you. To us your are very special already and we feel that you are truly a heaven sent. It takes a very selfless and loving person to place their child with another family. To us it shows what an amazing and strong person you are. Thank you for considering giving someone the incredible gift of a child. You have no clue what that will mean to someone some day!

We cannot wait to get to know you and have a relationship with you. We realize how important it is for your child to know you and understand where they come from. Your name will always be spoken to your child with the greatest love and respect. We want them to know what an angel you are and that because of you and your love they were able to be part of our family.

May the Lord bless you and be with you during this difficult time.

This is one of my favorite poems:

Two Women
by Lori Coleman

Two women cry into the night,
their eyes are filled with tears.
Oh God why is this happening?
I need to feel you near.

One woman sits alone in the darkness,
Decisions she must make.
She wants to do what’s best for the child,
It’s life she cannot take.

The other woman clings to her mate
And she doesn’t understand
why they can’t have a child of their own
as so many others can.

These women come from different worlds.
Their lives are miles apart.
But God would deliver the pain they felt
and heal their broken hearts.

And then one precious morning
their lives became intertwined.
Both women’s prayers were answered
as they felt God’s plan unwind.

One woman touched her newborn’s cheek
and whispered to the babe,
“Because I love you little one,
sacrifices I’ve made.”

With the strength she felt from heaven,
to the other woman she gave
the miracle of a baby
for her to love and raise.

The other woman looked down
at her precious baby’s eyes
and thanked God for the woman
who had helped fulfill her life.

Two women pray into the night
and thank the Lord above
for the opportunity he’s given them both
to feel a Mother’s love

LOST IN SEATTLE!!!

So I have started my new job and I love it. This is my second week here in Washington and I have one more week to go! I am learning tons and the girls here are great. They have been so patient and so awesome on training me! It is so pretty here in Washington! I love it. It has been raining like crazy here and there but it is a great place. My boss took me to Seattle and it was crazy! I love the big city! There was so much to see there.

It is really hard to be away from home. It is killing me to be away from my family. I know that it will be for the best in the long run but it is very difficult. I will add on some pictures here soon when I am able to get some free time!

Hope all is well with everyone. I do ask for prayer for my aunt who is going through her Chemo this week. She is pretty scared and needs all of the prayers that she can get. She is a fighter so I know we will make it through this. God is on our side!

NEW JOB HERE I COME!

We have been praying hard lately for an answer to our prayers and God has blessed us. I am currently at a job that is only part time which makes it hard to save for our adoption.

I am so excited I am starting a new job!

This new job is going to be amazing! I am going to be the office manager with a new company that is coming to town. The headquarters is located in Seattle Washington so I get to fly there for 2 weeks for training. Now to find a job that is so flexible and actually cares about family is a true blessing. We have the perfect set up now. The days that I will be working I will have family watching our little one. I love that we have a beautiful and close family and friends to help us. I didn’t want to put our little one into daycare for I wanted my family and friends to enjoy our little blessing and I want to be there for our child. This job is going to allow me to just that. I get to be mommy and enjoy it. I am so happy to have what feels like an up on our crazy roller coaster life!

It is so nice and refreshing to get a new start in life sometimes. I feel this is going to be a good year. It has had its ups and downs and we are only in March but I just feel that this is going to be a good year!

Thank you GOD!!!

One Door Closes.Another Opens

Revelations 3:8

When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully and let go, only 1 of 2 things will happen, either He’ll catch you when you fall, or He’ll teach you how to fly! ‘The power of one sentence! God closes doors no man can open & God opens doors no man can close..

~~~ VALENTINES ~~~

We had a wonderful Valentines this year! We know of this little cabin in McCall that we have rented last Valentines and it is the cutest! It is only $50.00 a night and it is the most amazing small little cabin. It is very cozy and modern. Everything about it is small but very romantic. The cabin has everything you need which makes it so nice. We made our own dinner and saved a bunch of money doing this! We got to bring our dog Newman who had so much in the snow. We also had fun and went to the Gold Fork Hot springs! It is so cool there and the water is so clean and warm. MMMM wish I was there now! Here are some pictures of our weekend.

THE FAMOUS CHEF COOKING UP OUR YUMMY JALEPENO SPAGHETTI!

HERE IS A PICTURE OF MY BEAUTIFUL FLOWERS THAT HE WENT OUT AND PICKED JUST FOR ME!

PICTURE TAKEN ON THE STAIRS OF THE KITCHEN AND THE LIVING ROOM. THERE IS A DOOR ON THE LEFT HAND SIDE THAT LEADS TO THE BATHROOM.

PICTURE GOING DOWN THE STAIRS FROM THE BEDROOM LOFT

HERE IS THE BEDROOM LOFT.

OTHER SIDE OF THE BEDROOM LOFT.

MESSY LIVING ROOM. WE BROUGHT OUR BEAN BAG AND IT WAS SO NICE TO HAVE. LOOKS MESSY IN THERE BUT WE SURE MADE OURSELVES AT HOME!

LOOK HOW TINY THE BATHROOM SINK IS!

THE FUN HOT SPRINGS!

WE REALLY DID HAVE A GREAT TIME AND CAN NOT WAIT TO GO BACK NEXT YEAR. WE LOVE THIS CABIN. HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GOOD VALENTINES DAY.

I GOT TO SEE MY COUSINS BABY!

My cousin Vanessa and her son Kelby came down to be with my aunt Linda since she was able to go home from the hospital yesterday. She is doing good still having some pain and difficulty eating but she is doing well. It was so good to see Vanessa. She has already lost most of her baby weight! She looks amazing! Kelby is an adorable little boy with cheeks that could just be kissed alllllllllll day! They are the softest cheeks ever. He is so adorable. She is such a lucky mom. She is so good with him.

PICTURES FROM BABYSITTING MADDOX

I LOVE PLAYING WITH THIS KID…. WOW I ALMOST GOT STUCK IN THIS NEW TOY OF HIS. HE WAS HAVING SO MUCH FUN THROWING BALLS AT ME WHILE I WAS TRYING TO GET UNSTUCK FROM THIS TOY! LOVE THE CHEEEEESY FACE. HE LOVES MAC N CHEESE CAN YOU TELL.

RANDOM PICTURES!!

We had some of our really good friends over a couple of weekends ago and here are some pictures from our exciting night!

HERE IS OUR BACK YARD GETTING PREPARED TO COOK UP THE WINGS AND SMOKE THE RIBS! I LOVE OUR BACK YARD.

ANYONE UP FOR SOME OF JUSTIN’S FAMOUS WINGS?

HERE IS ONE OF OUR BEST FRIENDS AUSTIN! HE USE TO BE OUR ROOMATE. I SURE MISS HIM! HE WAS GOOD AT THE HUNNY DO’S. THAT KID KNOWS HOW TO MOW A YARD! YES GIRLS… HE IS SINGLE!!!!

THIS IS ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS LACIE! GOT TO LOVE LACIE MACIE!

HERE IS OUR REALLY GOOD FRIENDS DANI AND LUKE! LOVE THEM. THEY HAVE 3 BEAUTIFUL BOYS THAT I WATCH ON FRIDAYS AND LOVE TO DEATH. THEY ARE SUCH A FUN COUPLE TO HANG WITH!

HERE IS ONE OF DANI AND LUKE’S LITTLE BOYS BENTELY. HE IS THE CUTEST KID I SWEAR. HE IS SUCH A GOOD BABY! WE SURE HAD FUN THIS NIGHT. HOPE TO DO IT AGAIN SOON!

WE ARE NEEDING ALL THE PRAYER WE CAN GET

********************UPDATE *************
MY AUNT IS GETTING OUT OF THE HOSPITAL TODAY! HER SURGERY WENT WELL SHE IS JUST HAVING SOME TROUBLE WITH THE PAIN. WE ARE ALL HOPING THAT SHE WILL HAVE A QUICK AND FAST RECOVERY. WE DID FIND OUT THAT HER BLOOD AND HER BODY IS CLEAR OF CANCER!!! SHE WILL HAVE TO DO CHEMO BUT IT MAY BE IN PILL FORM. THANK YOU ALL FOR PRAYING FOR HER AND PLEASE CONTINUE TO KEEP HER AND OUR FAMILY IN YOUR PRAYERS.

******************* UPDATE****************

I am asking for all of my family and friends or whomever crosses over my blog to stop and say a little prayer for my beautiful aunt Linda. She was diagnosed a couple of years ago with multiple sclerosis (MS). She has been battling this disease like a champ! Yesterday she was rushed in to the hospital because they found an 8 inch mass on one of her ovaries. They did immediate surgery yesterday to find out that she has or had ovarian cancer. The doctor is hope full that he has removed all of the cancer. May aunt has been handed a rough time and I know that God has a reasons and a plan for everything. I ask that you help us prayer that she fights this and fights with everything she has. I know she is strong enough to beat this. Thank you for all your prayers and taking the time to read about my aunt Linda. Linda we love you and we are here for you. We will be your back bone through the whole thing. We all will make it through this. I promise. In God we trust.

Here is a picture of my cousin, me, maddox, my sister and my aunt on the right hand side! Keep praying for her please I will update when I get any updates!

WHEN I NEED A LIFT ME UP

THIS IS A SONG THAT I HAVE LISTENED TO SEVERAL TIMES IN MY LIFE. IT IS A SONG THAT HAS GOTTEN ME THROUGH A LOT OF THINGS IN LIFE LIKE LOSING 3 BABIES. I SING THIS SONG AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS AND IT MAKES ME FEEL SO GOOD. IT REMINDS YOU THAT BAD TIMES WILL COME BUT GOD DOESN’T COME AND GO HE IS CONSTANT IN YOUR LIFE. HE IS THERE TO HOLD YOU AT THE END OF THE DAY WHEN YOU NEED IT MOST.

http://music.aol.com/artist/natalie-grant

http://music.aol.com/video/held/natalie-grant/1449600

Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling
Who told us we’d be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
We’re asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it’s unfair

[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We’d be held

This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow

[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We’d be held
[Bridge]
If hope is born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our savior
[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We’d be held
We’d be held

This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We’d be held

This is what it means to be held…..

Its called Held by Natalie Grant

A NOT SO GOOD BUT GOOD WEEKEND

So our weekend was a good but bad weekend.

Friday was a good relaxing night that we had just took it really easy and enjoy ourselves.

Saturday really was a horrible day for us. We went out to my parents house to go and say good bye to my little dog Yogi. I got Yogi as a graduation gift from my aunt in 1999. He was an amazing dog. When Yogi was a puppy he got ran over by a truck and it broke his tail and caused hip damage. His tail actually was dead… well at least half of it. The bottom half you could pinch and he wouldn’t even feel it. Over the years Yogi hasn’t let it slow him down. Last year we went camping and wow he was just giving it his all like he knew it was going to be his last year of camping and chasing squirrels. His hind end and his hips no longer could keep up with him. He would take about 3 steps across the floor and would have to stop. He was dragging his hind legs now. He would just sleep all day long since he couldn’t get up and move. My family thought it was time so we took him in to be put out of pain. It was so hard to do. My mom and I just sat there and held him and said good bye. He actually had a lonely tear come out of his eye. It was so horrible so I just cried all day Saturday and felt like crap. We will miss you so much Yogi bear. You will always be in our hearts.

Rest in peace yogurt… Mamma loves you. WE WILL ALL MISS YOU.

Sunday we got up and Justin decided to smoke some wings for the family! Got to love the smoker. After smoking them we BBQ them up and ate every single one of them. Mom brought and large salad that was so yummy. My whole family was over and wow we thought we were going to have left overs. I was wrong and underestimated how much my family (the boys) could eat! Justin is such an amazing cook it is hard to stop eating anything he makes! So they all stayed for lunch and desert which was a homemade apple pie made with love from Justin’s grandma Irene! Here is dad playing with Maddox and putting a dog toy on his head. He would make a really cute girl!

Hope all of you had a great weekend. Here are some updated pictures of the new additon Kelby our little cousin!

ELK FEEDING WITH THE FAMILY!

For Christmas this year I decided to take my family out for fun instead of buying individual gifts. I decided I would rather spend amazing time with them than give them a gift that they don’t need! Plus spending time with Justin and I is a much better gift anyways!! Here are a couple of pictures for you all to see.

This is an amazing thing to do. You get on a huge sleigh and it pulls you down into the trees. You sit there and just wait for all of the elk to come up to you. Once they feel comfortable you can’t get them to leave. They eat the hay bails that you are sitting on. They actually like to get right up underneath you and push you off the hay bails! It is so cool to be this close to them. I unfortunetly get the big bull elk everytime I go. It is an experience that everyone should have. Watch out though they do sneeze! Dad got a nice face full it was so funny.

HIS HORNS WERE IN MY BACK…. ALMOST RIPPED MY COAT

Then after the sleigh ride we all went out to eat at a little cafe. The food was great and the company is amazing! Dad and mom spoiled us all on lunch!

JUSTIN GOT A SMOKER

Yes it is true he finally went out and got a smoker! Now we are going to smoke everything.

ANYONE UP FOR SOME SMOKED PORK….YUM YUM!!

MY COUSIN HAD HER BABY!

CONGRATS KASEY AND VANESSA!! IT’S A BOY!

WELCOM KELBY CHRISTIAN. HE WEIGHED 8LBS AND 3OZ. HE IS 19 INCHES LONG AND WAS BORN ON SATURDAY AT 5:41 AM! HE IS SO ADORABLE! HERE A COUPLE OF PICTURES OF THE NEW ADDITION.

WELCOME HOME KELBY!

TRUE LOVE

JUST A RANDOM POST

I love getting to watch my nephew. I have him on Thursdays and we have so much fun together. He is just a hoot. All of his facial expressions just brighten my day. Here he is in the back of the car. We were waiting for uncle Justin to get lunch so I let him out of the car seat to play.

Look at this face. Seriously… can he get any more expressive! Love the cookie face.

I asked him to share his cookie but he wasn’t interested in sharing!

Justin and I have really been trying to walk everynight and then on Saturday go for a long hike in the foothills. WOW it has been exciting and frustrating all at the same time. So on Saturday we did a huge hike up to the top of a mountain (Justin calls it the foot hill but my legs call it a MOUNTAIN). There is a huge cross at the top and it was so amazing to stare at this cross on your way up. Thinking of all the trials that Jesus had to go through. It made me want to push myself even more. I got to the top and touched that cross and it felt amazing! Here is a picture of the cross and the view.

It is a good drive from our home to get to this place but once you get there it is so worth your time. There is so much to see. You feel like you can finally breath at the top and the air feels so fresh. I loved it. We are going to go again on Saturday I hope it doesn’t kill me like it did last Saturday! My legs… well my whole body still hurts!

JEN AND JERRY CAME TO VISIT!!

I was so excited to see my friends over the Holidays! It was crazy but we managed to set up time to see them when they were in town. They live so far away and the holiday’s are the only time I get to see them. Jen and I have been best friends since junior high. We are like sisters. Actually some days I wonder if we are twins. I was so excited to see her and of course her boyfriend Jerry. He is an amazing guy and we just had so much fun with them. Wish we could of spent more time but at least we were blessed with the time that we did get. Here are some pictures!

Justin really isn’t that short! We just have a lot of tall friends!!!

I miss you guys so much! Hope you guys get to come and visit more this year! miss you and love you bunches!

!3-4 WEEKS TO GO!

Vanessa and Casey

My cousin Vanessa and Casey her husband are pregnant with their first baby and it is so exciting. We had a baby shower for her a couple of months ago and it was so cool to see her belly. She was carring pretty high but they tell us it is a boy. We got to see the ultra sound pictures. Vanessa and Casey her husband live in Washington and it is hard because we don’t get to see them but at least we get pictures! She went to the doctor and he said that baby Kelby is going to be coming in about 3 – 4 weeks. By the way I love the name KELBY that is such a unique name. So soon, it feels like yesterday we found out she was pregnant. They are estimating that Kelby will weigh around 8 pounds! He sounds like a healthy little boy. Casey and Vanessa are so excited and I am sure kind of nervous but they will make great parents.

Here are some pictures for you!

Here is Vanessa, Me, Maddox (nephew), Erica (sister), and my mom.

Vanessa, Me, Maddox (nephew), erica (sister), and Vanessa’s mom my aunt Linda

I LOVE PREGNANT BELLIES!

Good luck you guys we love you!

~~ 2010 NEW YEARS ~~

Really has 2009 just flown by so fast? It sure seems like that for us. Guess it is because we have had so much go on in the last year.

We went over to our friends house on New Years Eve and had a blast. Tiffany and Laura made the best enchiladas ever. We ate way too much! I got to see my niece and nephew which was so cool. They are growing so fast and have so much personality. Here are some pictures from the night. I hope to be getting some more from Tiffany soon!

THE TREE AMIGAS!!!!

Once again Newman is so tuckered out tired. Poor dog had to be chased around by two weiner dogs and two large bull mastiff dogs!!! Fun time with Fun FRIENDS! Love you guys.

*** CHRISTMAS ***

Ok I know that I am slow at posting but this whole back to back holiday thing is hard to do!

So Christmas was good but very busy. We went to 3 different homes on Christmas. We went over to my mom and dad’s house for Christmas Eve and ate taco’s! We all had so much fun. Justin, Newman and I spent the night. It was like old times. We even heard Santa’s jingel bells in the morning telling us it was time to get up!

In the morning I made bacon, sausage and my mom made the eggs! Erica, Mikeal and Maddox all came over and we opened Christmas presents after breakfast. Wow we all were so spoiled.

Here is mom’s Christmas tree!

Maddox and papa opening gifts!

After mom and dad’s we went to my grandma’s house on my dad’s side. We had so much food. There is always tons of people and kids running around! It was nice I got to see some of my cousins that I haven’t seen in awhile. It is amazing how a couple of years can change people.

Then we headed over to Justin’s parents home for prime rib. It was great. Mary had the place settings all decorated so nice and neat and her tree was so beautiful.

Here is Justin’s mom and dad and of course our family!

Pooped little Newman. He was so tired. We got up at about 6:00 am and didn’t get back home until about 9:00 pm. It was a long and crazy day for all of us we were so tired! Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and enjoyed your time with family and friends.

MY NEPHEW IS GETTING SO BIG!

THURSDAY, FRIDAY AND SATURDAY I GOT BE WITH MY NEPHEW THE WHOLE DAY. BOY WAS I SPOILED! HE IS GETTING SO BIG. HE KNOWS WHERE ALL OF HIS TOYS ARE OVER AT AUNT BESSY’S HOUSE. IT IS SO CUTE HE GOES RIGHT TO THE ROOM AND WAITS FOR ME TO OPEN THE DOOR FOR HIM. IT IS AMAZING TO SEE HOW MUCH HE IS GROWING. HIS VOCABULARY IS AMAZING. HE IS SO SMART. YOU SHOW HIM HOW TO DO SOMETHING ONE TIME AND THAT KID WILL SIT THERE AND KEEP TRYING TO DO IT UNTIL HE FINALLY GETS IT. HE SURE BRINGS A SMILE TO MY FACE. HE NOW SAYS: YOGI, BRUISER, NEWMAN WHICH IS GRANDMA AND OUR LITTLE DOG. HE ALSO SAYS MAMMA, MAMO, BESSY BUT IT COMES OUT KIND LIKE SESSY, UP, MORE, HOT, BROOM, BALOON.. AND THE LIST JUST GOES ON AND ON!

IT IS REALLY HARD TO GET HIM TO TAKE A NAP AT MY HOUSE. HE IS ALWAYS SHOWING OFF AND THERE IS ALWAYS SO MUCH TO DO. FINALLY HE JUST GETS SO TIRED HE JUST PASSES OUT. POOR LITTLE BUG. HE LOOKS SO CUTE LAYING THERE ON THE FLOOR!

OUR GET AWAY

To our family and friends…

Justin and I are doing ok over all. We are hurting and we have a lot of unanswered questions that we may never have the answers to. We just are taking things day by day. This weekend we went to McCall for a get away. We needed to get away from here and just be alone. Here are a ton of pictures from the weekend.

I have had to sit back and really look at this situation that my husband and I are in right now. We are truly blessed with the support and the prayers of our family and friends. Most of all we are lucky to look at each other at the end of the night and know that we have each other. At the end of the night this is what means the most. I have asked myself truly so many questions. My mother in law sent me amazing uplifting email that has got me thinking even more. I have taken bits and piece of what he had said on his website and put it into my own words. When I face hard times I drop off the face of this earth. I don’t talk to people I try to take care of things on my own with out involving others. I don’t like to see others hurt or in pain because of something I am going through. Some people would like to run away as quickly as possible to escape it. Though this is a normal feeling, God has a different way. We may not understand or see his plan. I have sat back and said to many people I want people who are not a God fearing person to look at me in this low point in our lives and ask us WHERE IS YOUR GOD NOW? I want to be able to show them that my God did not put me through this, this is free will. I want them to be able to see what MY GOD is going to do for me and show that even though it is a tough situation I trust and need him more than ever right now.

It is not the trials in your life that develop or destroy you, but rather your response to those hardships. It is the tough times that make you stronger in the Lord and a stronger person. I have a lot of pride but I know that I can not live a life with out the Lord and there is NO shame in that. This email talked about things to do when we are so overwhelmed and feel like we have been left behind.

Trust God even though this can be the hardest thing in the world to do when you are down or you feel like you are getting punished for something. Believe that God knows what he is doing. Just look at all the miracles and all the times that he has carried your through from your past. He assures us that He limits our trials and enables us to endure. He will not put you through something he can not pull you through.

Persevere, You may not understand the why’s or the reasons but you should never give up. Continue seeking the Lord through His Word and prayer. I have been told so many times to cling to hope in Christ, and praise Him in the midst of the pain. This is the hardest thing for people to do. He is all that you have and all that can carry you through. If you can’t trust in the Lord and you can’t believe that he will carry you through… Then who will?? Usually it is too big for your self to carry you need him.

God is in control. He’s allowing free will for a reason and will demonstrate His sustaining power through it. Even though the pain might feel intolerable, the Lord will prosper us. Scripture compares our growth to gold, which is refined through fire (1 Peter 1:7). I got this verse from the amazing email and I looked it up on line! Love having the BIBLE on line so that I can just look it right up. Often, I hear believers reflect on a difficult time and admit that despite the intense hurt, they wouldn’t change the situation. They see the beauty God created through the struggle and realize its value. It makes you who you are today. It gives you character and strength…it is who you were meant to be.

We will encounter difficulties—sometimes intense and painful trials that seem too much for us. Yet we can rely on our heavenly Father to deliver and grow us in ways we could never imagine. He doesn’t demand that we endure on our own, but He does allow us to respond and trust him.

Thank you to all of our family and friends for the support and the prayers. Please continue to pray for our little one to come home and for us to find our miracle.
Thanks

Justin and Beth

TODAY IS A GIFT TOMORROW IS NOT PROMISED

Adoption update……It is with a heavy heavy heart that I write this to my family and friends. We are so very sad and devasted. Due to lack of communication and support our adopition was unsuccessful. The baby was born on Wednesday and was a healthy beautiful baby girl. The little baby is going to stay with the birth mother and she is going to raise her. I hope the best for her and that baby may God be with you. Our family is hurting but we are strong and our love is amazing.

Thank you mom and dad for your response and all of your support you have given to us:*****Beth and Justin you are in our prayers. You guys have been through alot. I remember when you guys first heard that you had been chosen to receive Kayleen. Meeting the birth parents of Kayleen, how you both really liked them. It takes courage and love to put a child up for a adoption. You grew to respect them in their decision and the same for them. To see you both gleam with joy, made us all excited. The months of planning and the joy of buying little outfits, trying to picture what she would look like in them. Getting everything ready for her. It is hard to understand, but remember God is guiding you both in the right direction. He will take care of you both, there will be a door open that God will guide you through. We are sadden but know that there is another who is waiting for you. We love you and are hurting along with you both. Remember to put your trust in God and he will be there for you to lean on. Your family and friends will be there to comfort you both. We wish that little baby girl and her family the best and that God will take care of them. We will keep praying! love you mom and dad

Thank you Mamma Mary for your kind words:***** What has happened to our family is such a tragedy. You both deserve Kayleen to be your daughter. Months of planning, hoping and praying to bring this little miracle child into a loving, happy family that would be the greatest of Christian parents. The future for her would have been rich in so many ways. God will bless you with another child to love and nurture. We can only pray that Kayleen will have a happy life ahead of her. God will open another door and bring you a child to love. Your broken hearts will heal, life will go on for all of us through faith in The Lord.
Love you both so very much!

Thank you Karine for your kind words :*****I just wanted to say our thoughts and prayers are with you and Justin!
YOU GUYS ARE GOING TO MAKE THE BEST PARENTS IN THE WORLD! I am praying that God will hurry and find you a child, one that will come home with you and be yours for forever!
KEEP THE FAITH! Someone will pick you guys and they realize it was the best decision they ever did! YOUR BIRTH MOM WILL FIND YOU!

Thank you Stephanie for your kind words and your support as well: *****http://theropersfamily.blogspot.com/

With all of this support I know we will bring Kayleen home. Our Kayleen is out there waiting for us to find her some where some day.

“I Still Believe”

Scattered words and empty thoughts
seem to pour from my heart
I’ve never felt so torn before
seems I don’t know where to start
but it’s now that I feel Your grace falls like rain
from every fingertip, washing away my pain

I still believe in Your faithfulness
I still believe in Your truth
I still believe in Your holy word
even when I don’t see, I still believe

Though the questions still fog up my mind
with promises I still seem to bear
even when answers slowly unwind
it’s my heart I see You prepare
but its now that I feel Your grace fall like rain
from every finger tip, washing away my pain

The only place I can go is into Your arms
where I throw to You my feeble prayers
in brokenness I can see that this was Your will for me
Help me to know You are near.

These last couple of days have been the hardest most devastating days of our lives. Life is definately a roller coaster and God sure does love to throw us some curve balls. But in the end, we are lucky to have each other. God has blessed our lives with the beauty of love. Love for each other, love for our family & friends, and enough love in our hearts to give to a child. We have been praying for God to bless our lives with a child and so far it has been a tough journey. From miscarriages to unsuccessful operations to failed adoptions but we have faith that God will answer our prayers.

We won’t give up and we are ‘preparing the field’ for our baby. We know God has big plans for our lives and trust that he wants us to have a child. We will continue on this path to adopt a child to make our family complete. Thank you for all of your prayers as we travel down the path of child adoption. This journey has had many ups and many downs so we thank everyone for being by our sides through thick and thin. We love you all and couldn’t have made it this far without you!

We know our baby is out there and we know that our baby needs us as much as we need our baby. This is all in God’s hands and we know with all of hearts he has a plan.

MY LITTLE NIECE!

My sister in law just sent me this picture! Jalee I guess just fell asleep laying on this chair I thought it was a stinking cute picture. She is patiently waiting to have a little cousin to hold and play with.

That just makes me hurt looking at her. That looks so uncomfortable.

A SPECIAL FAMILY

Meet our really good friends! Here is Stephanie and Josh with their kids. We all have been friends for many years. They were both in our wedding. I have talked about them a couple of times on here. Please take the time to look at her blog.

http://theropersfamily.blogspot.com/

She put such a sweet post in her blog about Justin and I when we started the adoption process. Here is part of what she wrote!

About JUSTIN AND BETH

These two are my inspiration in life and why I decided to carry a baby for a family who couldn’t have a baby of their own. I wished to have carried for them but due to medical reasons they were unable to go through with the process.

They are an incredibly loving family and would be great and wonderful parents. After researching infertility in women I found that 1 out of 10 women suffer infertility in America. I was shocked at the facts. Beth went through multiple surgeries to have a child of their own and after several miscarriages and loss they decided adoption would be there best option. It was a hard decision for them to make because everyone has the dream of having a baby of their own.

I know that adoption is not for everyone. Beth and Justin have so much love to give. They own a little yorkie named Newman… and for now that dog is their baby… and they love him unconditionally… how much more would they love a child of their own.

Please pray for this deserving family. There is no greater joy in life then raising a child and watching them grow. I know God has something special planned for them and they need prayers right now so that their dream can come true. She is my inspiration because all though her suffering was great during this long process, she endured every minute of it with Hope, Love, and Faith. I know God will reward them for all of their patience in life and I can’t wait to throw her the most wonderful baby shower she could ever wish for! I love you Beth and Justin!

WELL… She found out she was carrying twins for this deserving family! She just gave birth to them on Tuesday! Babies were 4 weeks early weighing almost 6lbs each. They are healthy and beautiful and perfect! The parents are so happy and so overwhelmed that after 7 years they finally have two perfect little girls. Their names are Maya and Eya (pronounced Aya).
Stephanie carried these babies so well that they were only 4 weeks early and do not have to stay in the NICU! They get to go home! The most amazing thing is though that Stephanie is an amazing person. She gave birth to these babies all NATURAL. I am so proud of her. She truly is a heaven sent straight from GOD.

Here are some pictures of the babies!

They are so beautiful! Oh what a blessing.

I can’t wait to bring our little miracle home. In God’s time! We have about 3 weeks left before our due date!

HAD A GREAT WEEKEND

On Friday night we went over to our friends house for dinner and to spend the night. We had chicken, potatoes, and asparagus. They were so good. It was nice getting to see them. We all get so busy sometimes and it is hard to find the time to relax and have fun with friends and family. It was nice seeing their kids EJ and AVa. They just keep growing so fast.

Saturday we just stayed at home and relaxed. Watched tons of movies and just enjoyed each other. Since it was Halloween we always hand out candy at the house. I usually every year have my sister and her family over to carve pumpkins. For some reason I guess I had too much on my mind I totally forgot to do the pumpkins this year. I was really sad when I finally realized this. Anyways, we had 50 tricker or treaters this year. I love seeing all of the different costumes and seeing all of the little kids.

Sunday we headed out to my parents house and went to church with them. My uncle Mike showed up and went with us!This was so cool because he is a new Chrisitian and it was so cool to see him at church. After, we headed to mom and dad’s for lunch/dinner!

We had tacos, nachos, veggie tray, shrimp and fries for Maddox! Mom found this nacho cheese at Costco and wow what a hit. That stuff was so good and way addicting!

Here is mom cleaning up!

Justin eating mom's home made cake!

Dad eating half of the cake!

Me and my little man!

MY BEAUTIFUL SISTER

HIGH FIVE!

CRAZY UNCLE MIKE!

Look who is in the Halloween Spirit!

MY DAD IS SO STINKIN CUTE… THIS IS HIS FIRST PUMPKIN HE HAS EVER CARVED!

LOOK HOW WELL IT TURNED OUT!

GREAT WEEKEND!!

The weather over all was great. Little windy but it was a great sunny weekend!

We had my nephew over for the night on Friday. It was a blast he is such a good kid. He didn’t sleep to well so I took him into the spare bedroom and slept with him in bed! He loves to cuddle. He also likes to beat up whoever he is sleeping with him. He is a wild child. All over in the bed kicking and hitting. Loves to talk in his sleep so funny.

He loves his bath time!

Look at his new Halloween costume that he got for this year! So cute.

Saturday we got up bright and early with him. It was so cute at about 6:00am Justin came and climbed into bed with us. Maddox was so tired he wanted up but wanted to sleep. Justin kind of layed Maddox’s head on his chest. It was so cute to see them snuggling together.

After he left our house Justin and I decided to work around the house. I mowed the yard he did the leaves then it was cooking time. We ended the night with a nice warm fire.

So no laughing I just realized my lines are horrible. I can’t mow straight!

Preparing the wings… it was cold out but we love the out doors.

Can you say yum yum!!!

Sunday we celebrated my mother’s birthday. We had everyone over for lunch/dinner. Justin made a Luau Pineapple chicken over the grill. Oh my so good. Then I made baby red potatoes that were to die for. My brother in law made us some asparagus. Erica made her famous rice crispy’s and deviled eggs. We had such a great meal. To top it off mom made two of her favorite pies. I am waiting on her to send some pictures to me!

ALL THE KIDS

DAD AND I

MY YOUNG MOM THE BIRTHDAY GIRL. LOVES THIS PICTURE OF MY PARENTS

CRAZY DAD!

CRAZY SISTER… OUR FAMILY LIKES TO HAVE FUN CAN YOU TELL!

AND OF COURSE MADDOX!!

LOVE THIS COOL WEBSITE

http://www.urchinrock.com/gallery2003.php

I WAS SENT THIS LINK FOREVER AGO AND JUST CAME UPON IT AGAIN IN MY FAVORITES. IT IS A PRETTY COOL WEBSITE. THESE KIDS ARE AMAZING AND IT IS SO COOL HOW THEY CAN GET SUCH GREAT PICTURES.

HERE ARE SOME OF MY FAVORITE PICTURES FROM THIS WEBSITE

TO OUR BIRTHPARENTS WHEREVER YOU ARE

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Just the other day, I was informed that I would be a mother,
Yet it isn’t me that will carry the baby, it is another.
The love I feel for this woman is extremely unique;
I don’t even know her and we can’t even speak.
How can I thank her for such a sacrifice?
How can anything I do every suffice?
I hardly know about her feelings or fears,
but I can guess the extent of her tears,
For my eyes flow with tears of my own-
When I think of her with arms empty and alone.
I wish I could convey to her the time I have spent crying,
Knowing that she feels like a part of her is dying.
But what would I say to someone so alone?
How would I gain her trust for this baby she has grown?
I wish I could know what she is going through
So I could help her do what she must do.
Does she know how much she is on my mind?
Does she know that I am truly kind?
Does she know that I love her for the baby-
that she is so faithfully, entrusting to me?
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PARTS OF OUR FAMILY!

EVEN THOUGH THEY DON'T LIKE EACH OTHER

MAMMA MAMMA, BUDDY, WILLOW

HAD TO TAKE THESE PICTURES. HORRIBLE PICTURES BECAUSE IT WAS SO LATE AT NIGHT BUT IT WAS SO CUTE.

I WENT UPSTAIRS TO GO TO BED AND FOUND ALL OF MY CATS ON THE BED. THEY CLAIM TO NOT LIKE EACH OTHER BUT I THINK THAT THEY DO! SO CUTE.

OUR WEEKEND

Friday night we didn’t do much at all we just stayed around the house and relaxed.

Saturday Justin had to work so my mom, sister and little Maddox came over in the morning and off to Babies R Us we were. We went shopping for a bassinet. I have been looking all over for one and just couldn’t decide. Here is a picture of the one I finally got!

I love it! It is nice and light too. We have a two story home and the baby’s room is all the way upstairs. So this will be perfect for her to sleep in downstairs. She is going to love it.

Saturday night we made homemade spaghetti. I love spaghetti. We didn’t end up eating it because we wanted to save it for meals for the week but it was good! We wanted to go camping but since Justin had to work we camped in the back yard!

It was great. Where we have this fire pit is tucked back in the corner and it felt just like we were camping. The smell of the wood and camp fire were awesome. You couldn’t really hear anything else. The wind was blowing so it kind of drowned out the noise. Then we went and slept outside in our 5th wheel for the night. We had so much fun.

Sunday we got up and had biscuits and gravy homemade by Justin. They were so good. We headed off to a new church were Justin’s boss was preaching at. He is an amazing amazing amazing preacher. Wow every time he speaks he just moves me so much. I tear up everytime. Great Man, great leader, and great friend. After church we headed out to our friends house for lunch. Justin cooked up 10 pounds of chicken wings. Oh my they were so good. Everyone loved them. Our friend Josh made homemade onion rings and potato chips that were to die for. Great lunch. Then it was off to Justin’s parents house for dinner.

WE ATE WAY TOO MUCH ON SUNDAY I THINK I GAINED 10 POUNDS IN ONE DAY.

Here is grandma Irene. One of the most amazing women you will ever meet. Love her so much.

This is Mary Justin’s mom! She was so excited to have everyone over. She went out and bought a new tablecloth and made this really good pear cake. Yum Yum. Robert his dad is an amazing cook. He loves to cook. He made us fish and chips that he caught on the Oregon Coast this summer. You never walk away hungry from there at all!

Her yard is amazing it looks so nice right now. She is really big into landscaping and gardening. She has a huge pond that is so nice to go and sit by. The colors are awesome this time of year there. Couldn’t get a picture it was too dark for my camera phone.

Overall we had a great and busy weekend!

ITS MY MOM’S BIRTHDAY TODAY!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!!!
LOOK HOW AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL MY MOM IS**

STILL SO YOUNG MOM! YOUR THE BEST. WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

SOMEONE IS IN THE HALLOWEEN SPIRIT!

MY SISTER SENT ME THIS PICTURE LAST NIGHT AFTER MADDOX WENT THROUGH THE KITCHEN AND MOVED EVERYTHING AROUND. I LOVE THESE PJ’S SHE BOUGHT HIM!

LOOK AT THIS FACE

So I went to my parents over the weekend to drop off some of my stuff that I have that I need her to store. I have a bassinett that I had that she needed so I am letting her borrow it for a bit.

Well Maddox my nephew was over there since his mom and dad were camping. I got to spend so much time with him. He is getting so big.

I brought this bassinett over to my mom’s and Maddox kept trying to get into it. I kept telling him he was a big boy and that it was for little babies.

He didn’t care obviously he got his way! Look at that face! I can’t say no to him!

We went to my cousin’s breast cancer auction. There were a ton of people out to support her it was nice.

Then I went home to spend time with Justin. We cleaned the house all day on Saturday and Sunday was relaxation day.

ANGELS ARE AMONG US

Angels are among us
They are sent from God above
I know of many angels here
with such a Christ like Love
They are selfless loving women
That carry priceless Sacred lives
Who help complete Forever families here
That could not have otherwise
You are among these angels,
That has this priceless gift,
True love and understanding,
the lord has blessed you with.
You have angels with you
They are always by your side
To lead and guide you through
Your selfless sacrifice
Know the lord has chosen you,
to be special in this way,
to bless another family
with a gift they cannot repay.
So let this angel remind you,
of the amazing woman that you are,
Your light and grace will always shine
More brilliant than a star.

AUTHOR: KARINE MIKESELL

WHAT TO DO FOR THE WEEKEND

SORRY I HAVEN’T UPDATED IN AWHILE I HAVE BEEN SO STRESSED OUT AND BUSY.

WHAT TO DO FOR THE WEEKEND? SO TONIGHT I AM DRIVING OUT TO MY PARENTS HOUSE TO SEE MY NEPHEW! MOM AND I ARE GOING TO GO TO MY COUSINS AUCTION OUT IN MARSING. THEY ARE TRYING TO RAISE MONEY FOR HER. SHE JUST RECENTLY HAD SURGERY FOR BREAST CANCER AND SHE IS ONLY 23. SO WE ARE GOING OUT TO SHOW OUR SUPPORT! MAY HAVE MADDOX MY NEPHEW SPEND THE NIGHT!

TOMORROW IT IS MOW OUR YARD DAY 😦 GOING TO HAVE TO MOW AND CATCH UP AROUND THE HOUSE. THEN SATURDAY EVENING WE ARE GOING TO MY FRIEND AND CO WORKERS HOME FOR A BBQ. OUR OFFICE IS GETTING TOGETHER TO UNWIND WITH OUR SPOUSES. IT SHOULD BE FUN. WE ARE HAVING STEAK, TATTERS, AND A TON OF VEGETABLES!

SUNDAY IS RELAX DAY. WE REALLY COULD USE A GOOD DAY TOGETHER SO IT SHOULD BE REALLY NICE. I ALMOST HOPE IT RAINS GOOD ON ON SUNDAY SO WE CAN STAY IN THE HOUSE SNUGGLE UP BY THE FIRE AND WATCH MOVIES!

WELL I HOPE EVERY ONE HAS A GOOD WEEKEND! LOVE YOU ALL AND GOD BLESS.

KEEP US ALL IN YOUR PRAYERS!

KEEP PRAYING FOR US!

OUR WEEKEND!

WE GOT TO GO CAMPING AGAIN! WE ARE SO LUCKY THAT WE GET TO SPEND WEEKENDS TOGETHER. WE ENJOY THEM TO THE FULLEST. HERE ARE A COUPLE OF PICTURES FROM THIS WEEKEND.

OUR CAMPFIRE

WHERE ARE THE SMORES!

WE RODE OUR RHINO UP TO A LOOK OUT LOOK AT HOW PRETTY IT WAS.

GODS BEAUTY

NEWMAN AND BETH

SCOUTING JUSTIN

HERE ARE SOME OLD MINES AND A RANCH THAT WE FOUND FROM BACK IN 1864.

THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE PICTURES

WEEKEND PLANS

WE ARE GOING CAMPING AGAIN! IMAGINE THAT. I SWEAR WE LIVE IN THE MOUNTAINS A LOT DURING THE SUMMER. LOVE THE OUTDOORS AND ALL OF GOD’S BEAUTY. I WILL MAKE SURE TO TAKE TONS OF PICTURE OF ALL THE OLD MINES THAT WE FOUND LAST WEEKEND AND ANYTHING NEW. CAN’T WAIT TO GET AWAY FOR THE WEEKEND. THIS WEEK HAS BEEN A TOUGH AND BUSY WEEK. CAN’T WAIT TO GET UP IN THE MOUNTAINS AND SMELL THAT FRESH MOUNTAIN AIR. KEEP US IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS AND I HOPE EVERYONE HAS A WONDERFUL WEEKEND.

KEEP PRAYING FOR US AND OUR WONDERFUL ADOPTION ADVENTURE!

STILL WAITING FOR OUR BABY

WHAT TO DO FOR THE WEEKEND?

So the weather is suppose to be pretty rainy this whole weekend and for Justin and I being outside freaks this kind of puts a damper on our weekend. We have a wedding to go to on Saturday night which should be pretty fun! I was kind of hoping for at least some good weather on Sunday so we could take our motorcycle out for a long nice ride! I am not sure the weather is going to participate with us. Tonight I have invited my parents, sister and of course Maddox over for dinner so that they all may see my newly painted bathroom. Its amazing what a little paint will do. I made up this new recipe that I am very impressed with so I am going to make if for them. It is kind of like a Mexican Lasagna! We will see if they love it too!

POSTED BY OUR FRIENDS THE ROPER FAMILY

Meet Beth and Justin

http://adoptanewbeginning.org/adoptive-parent-profiles.htm

These two are my inspiration in life and why I decided to carry a baby for a family who couldn’t have a baby of their own. I wished to have carried for them but due to medical reasons they were unable to go through with the process.

They are an incredibly loving family and would be great and wonderful parents. After researching infertility in women I found that 1 out of 10 women suffer infertility in America. I was shocked at the facts. Beth went through multiple surgeries to have a child of their own and after several miscarriages and loss they decided adoption would be there best option. It was a hard decision for them to make because everyone has the dream of having a baby of their own.

I know that adoption is not for everyone. It takes a very special person to take a baby in as their own and love it just the same. But Beth and Justin have so much love to give. They own a little yorkie named Newman… and for now that dog is their baby… and they love him unconditionally… how much more would they love a child of their own.

Please pray for this deserving family. There is no greater joy in life then raising a child and watching them grow. I know God has something special planned for them and they need prayers right now so that their dream can come true. She is my inspiration because all though her suffering was great during this long process, she endured every minute of it with Hope, Love, and Faith. I know God will reward them for all of their patience in life and I can’t wait to throw her the most wonderful baby shower she could ever wish for! I love you Beth and Justin!

Camping with Maddox!

THIS IS A PICTURE OF MY BEAUTIFUL SISTER ERICA, HER SON MADDOX, MY SON THE DOG NEWMAN AND ME! MADDOX IS THE ONE DRIVING US

<img I LOVE CHEETOS! IF MY MOM ONLY KNEW HOW MANY AUNT BETH GAVE ME!!!

Uncle Justin and Maddox

Uncle Justin and little Maddox!

We went over to grandma and grandpa’s house and

got to spend time with our nephew Maddox! We got to

give him a bath and look what we did to his hair!!